Today's Journey: Rolling With the Punches...

09.24.12
Have you ever had something bad happen in your life, and the weight of it was overbearing?  Then after it happened it seemed like the negativity, the pressure, and the bad stuff just wouldn't go away?  Well that seems to be the story of my life lately.  I think that the song by Pistol Annies best fits this scenario, "Housewife's Prayer." Part of the song goes, "I've been thinking about setting my house on fire, can't see no way out of the mess I'm in, and the bills keep getting higher."  That is a perfect description of how I feel some days.  It just seems like life has this way of snowballing one bad thing on top of another.  My other half recently lost his job, well I guess I should explain in more detail.  He was fired, then got his job back.  Then the next day he quit, then he got his job back.  Then he found a new job- so he never went back.  Hope you are still following me.  SO he got a new job, and we were very excited.  It was not more money, but a step up in advancement, and the opportunity was much greater.  I was thrilled.  He had been unhappy for so long that it was just his time to get out of the place he was working and go somewhere new, fresh start.  Well that happiness lasted a whole day and a half when he realized that he was not comfortable, and afraid that he was  not going to pick up the new job fast enough.  I guess the store manager (a 24 year old kid) felt the same way and pretty much demoted him to a tech after a day and a half.  Well from that point on he was treated like an idiot and like he did not know what he was doing.  He worked 6 days that week getting treated like crap, and after long talks, and much debate he went back to work on Monday and was let go as soon as he walked in the door.  Back to the drawing board we went.

Another line in the song is "I been thinking about going off the deep end, my man can't get no overtime, and the baby ain't been sleeping." Another true statement for me.  I feel like I am going to lose my mind.  I am working full time, I have school work, the baby, my 10 year old, the household chores, and just life in general to deal with.  It has just been crazy.  I don't know what has kept me sane, but luckily I am pretty strong, and I have gotten through it.  I think I may still end up having or needing to just breakdown and get it out of my system.  But not yet......